Thursday's Thoughts - I hate perfectionism

I think this should be Thursday's rant instead of Thursday's Thoughts but that's not an alliteration.

Anyway,  I just need to get this off my chest and out in the cyber world for everyone to read…ha ha.

I've been sitting here all day doing nothing.  Any why, you ask, have I done nothing?  Well, because I know anything I attempt to do today will not be done perfectly.  And not only that, anything I do (i.e. clean the kitchen etc.) Will be undone as soon as my kids get home from school.  So since I can't be perfect, and doing anything sometimes seems pointless…I do nothing.

Have you ever had one of those days?

Perfectionism is a horrible condition to have.  It's the feeling that everything has to be perfect for you to be happy.  I think our whole society suffers from this.  We expect our food at the restaurant to be perfect (to our standards) or we send it back.  We want our produce to look perfect or we won't buy it. (Have you ever gardened? Food rarely grows off the plant perfect.) We sue our Doctor if he wasn't perfect.  I get nasty letters from my HOA if I don't keep my front yard perfect.  We judge nearly everyone we see or meet if they don't look perfect.  And heaven forbid anyone comes to my house to visit if it doesn't look perfect.

Well, I can't do it.  I can't be perfect.  If you want to visit me, come on over! You are always welcome.  But know that there may be some shoes on the living room floor and my kitchen may not be spotless.  Trying to keep it that way is stressing me out.

I want to love my life;  to take time to smell the proverbial roses, to laugh and play with my children not spend the few hours we have after school haranguing them to be perfect at their homework, practicing etc.

And please don't judge me by my clothes, hair etc.  I'm not a visual person and I don't even notice other people's styles.  I wear what I feel comfortable in and it's not pretty.

So,  there it is.  My rant for the day.  Maybe I feel a little better.  And maybe I'll spend the rest of the day out in the sunshine blowing bubbles with my kids.